waiting

doctors and specialists and tests. another medically focused time. hopefully this too will lead to nothing but the nagging negative nelly in the back of my brain wonders if it will be something. so we wait and wonder.

while we wait we watch the world around us crumble into states of cancer and death. children dying. children with cancer. friends losing their fight. friends starting their fight. the world is mean. 

my little carved out corner carries a lot of joy. am I really this blessed? 

so I wait and wonder.