Moving forward

My life is in flux right now. Work ends of Friday, I have no job lined up and, for the first time, I really want to be where I am. It's hard in this field to get your heart set on one school. I don't want to change schools, start again. I like my school. I love my friends there.

This is the first time since I became a mom where I have friends who are not all about my kids. Not that I don't love and appreciate my mom friends, because I really do, but it's nice to have friends who like me for the other me, the true me, the non-mom me. That me is returning now. This year has allowed me to rediscover myself, the side of myself that existed before I had kids. And I like her. She's fun. I hope that she doesn't disappear this summer. That she doesn't get lost in the stay-at-home-mom thing. And I hope that I don't lose these friends. Because I really (really) love them and now can not imagine my life without them.

I forgot how fun it is to make new friends. Making friends as an adult is hard. But when you do, it's this whole world of newness. Conversations, getting to know each other, hanging out, excited to hang out.

So here we go, into the summer. Hopefully finding myself where I want to be. Spending time with new and old friends. And reconnecting with my boys.

Always an adventure, never a dull moment, and other such cliches.

running

today I ran 10k in 1.06.23 which is double the time of elite runners but 7 minutes faster than my previous best time, which was only 5 weeks ago.  i'm proud of what I did today. it brings me so close to my first fitness goal which is to run 10k in under 60 minutes.

i ran in a sea of women, 1500 women, goddesses. it was amazing, everyone was encouraging and supportive. and at the end, i had a friend to cheer me on as i sprinted to the finish line.