energy

it's back. i have it again. i am efficient. working reminded me of how much i could get done in a day. now my expectations are higher. now i do more.

i was lazy.

now i'm not.

it's good.

it's sad that i need to be reminded of how efficient and organized i can be. i can be the person with the organized closets. i just have to find the time to do them and do it. my time is well spent cleaning, organizing. my life runs better. my heart beats normally. i am at peace.

i like clean closets.

pit

there is a pit in my stomach. i do not know what is causing it. i know that the stress is leaving. i'm waiting for the other shoe to fall.

go away anxiety. i don't want you to dictate my mood. i want to shove you down and be full of joy. face my day. enjoy my blessings.

today i will be full of joy. i will ignore the pit in my stomach. i will force the anxiety to go away. i will be full of joy.

if i will it, it will come.